I wish I had my old femdom collection

[silversucker]

I got into femdom around 2009 and things have changed a lot. I lost all my videos and photos a year ago in a massive failure of multiple hard drives. I had built up the collection over ten years. It was depressing because I viewed collecting femdom as almost a hobby, not just jerk off material.

It's not like it was the most important thing in my life by any means, but it was always in the background. Specific clips were almost sentimental to me, because I had memories of other things going on in my life at the time I downloaded them or was watching them. Mostly just simple things, like "oh yeah, I was watching this clip that one night after I came home from that great restaurant" or whatever. Just like the way music or old photos makes people sentimental. I know that sounds extremely pathetic, but I'm not exactly offended by that notion as you might imagine.

I've heard that adrenaline rushing through your body during an experience makes it more likely for that moment to become cemented in your mind. And that might explain why I have so many happy memories of life in general that just so happen to be during a time I was downloading or watching a super exciting clip.

I've tried to rebuild somewhat but it's obviously impossible at this point, and femdom doesn't excite me like it used to anyway. So much of that older stuff has been lost to time. People's tastes are different, files get deleted, websites go offline, etc. Nothing surprising. But it does suck to have years of work destroyed, even if that work was collecting porn. And the collection wasn't the only thing that was destroyed. It wasn't even the most important thing. Movies, music, documents, etc were also lost. But I know you guys on here are the only ones that can possibly relate to the depression of losing a porn collection lol.

Anyway, when I started trying to rebuild my data from scratch, I really saw how different things are now, not just porn sites and porn content, but the internet itself, it kind of makes me realize how much time has gone by since I first got into it, how much older I'm getting. I can't believe I wrote this shit but I guess I'll go ahead and post it, even though it's probably just bots reading it.